Mirage of Happiness

Those people who were close to heart,
Of their lives i was an inextricable part,
Now i don't see myself in their eyes any more,
it seems our relations have turned sour.
I hided my feelings as i was scared to show
that i loved and cared
And they forgot me like i was no more,
Like i was dead...
Friends became foes,
joys became woes,
and with every passing day,
my wounds rankled more.
Running behind the mirage of happiness
like a thirsty traveller,
i realise how disillusioned i was?
And things that were so precious,
were actually miles apart.

Just like that....

The past one month has been the worst part of my life till date. I lost everything that i loved and i always cherished. Everyhting was against me. Sometimes situations become so bad that you have no option but to leave yourself to the tide. It has been a great learning experience for me as i learnt only i can i help myself and no one else. I was so pissed of with everything that i felt like running away to a place where no one knows who i am.
I learn from my mistakes. and in this past one month i realised who my friends are. i always strived to clarify that things were not like as they thought. I wanted to clarify i was not wrong. But then i thought if they don't trust you, you cannot make them believe it. I said why i need to give clarification for everything. let them think whatever they want to. Sometimes it really hurts when someone with whom you share your secret believing he or she would not let it out, they behind your back gossip about you. But atleat i learnt that only i but no one lese can help me.